nobuyuki
Creature of the Night
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Post by nobuyuki on Jan 19, 2009 21:46:07 GMT -5
Keika stood leaned against one of the buildings opposite of where the Lounge was her arms crossed over her chest. She was contemplating going in there alone for once seeing as how she had yet to do that, but each time she tried she always backed out.
She hated pubs due to the crowdiness and the volumes of most of them. Lounge she could handle when she had company, but even so going alone she was not sure of. She had thought about inviting others, but could not bring herself to do that either. She gave a dejected sigh pushing away from the builidng. Yet again, this had been a bad idea, "This sucks...I really am pathetic."
She gave a mocking laugh as she turned away.
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Post by Nightwalker on Jan 19, 2009 22:29:55 GMT -5
I was late I was suppose to be meeting someone at the Lounge. Man I hate being in a rush. I jumped off the building. As I free fall and thought man I need to get a whatchamacalit. Oh yeah a watch. Not that I even know how to read it. I usually keep time by the moon and when their is no moon I don't set appointments. I run over there and almost trip as I skid to a stop.
"Chibiki?" I say as I pause blinking slowly. "What are you doing out here?" I say simply. I take her gently by the arm. "Come on in." I say as I lead the way and open the door. It wasn't to crowded yet. Some humans and vampires dancing a few of the regulars. Some addicts who like to be bitten. Overall pretty easy compared to the rush.
I lead her up to the bar. "Chibiki this is bob. Bob this is my daughter Chibiki. Anything she wants she get's put it on Chiru's family expense report." I say with a grin. Compared to me the entire family doesn't even scratch the surface of the cost for my booze. I reach behind the counter and pull out a bottle of wine rum. Bob quirks his brow at me and I grin. "Going light tonight. I'll hit the heavier stuff when it gets a bit later so have it prepared." I say as I take Chibiki further in to a private booth. I know very little except she is a shy girl so I figure a place a bit out of the way where she can watch would be best. I pour us both a drink and put hers infront of her a little bloodwine will hopefully loosen her up a bit.
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nobuyuki
Creature of the Night
One cannot gain anything without first giving something of equal value in return...
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Post by nobuyuki on Jan 19, 2009 23:24:35 GMT -5
Keika came to a stop when she heard her name or the newest nickname of hers as she turned slightly seeing whom had called out to her. At first she was not sure who was before it, but it only took a moment for her to recall, "Nightwalker? I was going to go in, but chan..."
She trailed off when he took her arm leading her to the one place she had decided to avoid as she stiffened just slightly until stepping inside seeing the place did not seem all that busy.......yet. That would change as it got later, it was always busy later on in the evening. Always. She may not enter the place, but she had been keeping an eye on it.
She gave a slight nod of her head at being introduced to Bob, but did not order anything a bit surprised by Nightwalker's statment. She goes with him as he leads her to a private booth a bit caught off guard by it, she figured he would want to be with the groups, but than what did she know of him? Very little really...
She glanced around her warily wishing to be back outside, but she figured he had chosen this for her benefit and she knew it would be rude to up and leave so she sat down taking the offered wine glancing at it curiuosly before taking a light sip. Finding the taste very...delightful? Hmm..was that even a way to describe a drink.
She turns her gaze to Nightwalker unsure of what to say at the moment, "I..."
She clamps her mouth shut feeling that would be a stupid question or rather statement as she turns her gaze elsewhere feeling really out of place. When it came to a Father, in which she knew that is what he was to her now, she found herself still weary of opening to that side. Still fearing of being hated and disliked. Plus the fear of being hurt for it, but she knew or felt rather he was not like that, but past memories held those feelings really close so it was hard to be opened up and or relaxed around him., "Am I interupting or interfereing in your evening? Were you going to meet someone?"
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Post by Nightwalker on Jan 19, 2009 23:49:26 GMT -5
I watch her and smile. Such a shy bird. Oh well. I wait for her to speak and she starts then stops. I sigh. Guess the wine isn't enough to loosen her lips. I should have probably known better. Oh well nothing helping it now.
I think about the appointment with walter. He can wait he'll come looking for me eventually but he's my servant after all so I can just tell him to sit down and shutup. Which will work right until everyone leaves then I'll get an earful. "No not at all. I've got nothing pressing this evening." I say with a sly smile.
"So tell me lass." I say simply. Trying to start some conversation to get her to open up a bit. "Why did you take chiru as a sire?" I say pondering the idea. If I can just get her to talk more about herself I might be able to crack the shell and find out what's hidden there. She's a member of KVM and she needs to understand what that means. I'm not always around but most of the time someone in the family is and so she needs to get use to us.
I ponder on what exactly to do next if she stays silent. Hmm perhaps I should take her out for a dance. That would probably make her upset damn. How about I take her upstairs for a game of dice. No most women don't gamble nor do they find it entertaining. Well how about.... No. Well damnit what should I do? hmm what should I do.
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nobuyuki
Creature of the Night
One cannot gain anything without first giving something of equal value in return...
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Post by nobuyuki on Jan 20, 2009 0:08:51 GMT -5
Keika notices she is holding her glass a little to tight to the point of knowing she could break it as she eases off just a bit beginning to swirl the liquid watching it spin around continiously.
She tilts her head slightly at him noticicng his word phrasing getting the feeing he did have something he had to do or someone to meet, but she figured it was not important or for her she was having them wait. His choice what could she do about it?
His question however caught her off guard as her gaze shot up to meet his with her eyes widening a bit, but soon enough she got her composure under control as she took another few sips before placing her glass back down cupping her hands around it as she stared down into the wine,"It was either be turned or kill myself...I was on the verge of just ending it all, but for some reason her words and her offer seemed worthwhile. I do not know seemed worth it....a new life. A new start....seemed like the way to go at first, but I don't seem to making much out of this life either...I am sure you don't want to hear my ramblings or a depressing story and I am not sure I want to go into it..."
She was having an inner battle on whether to open up for once to another besides Chiru and tell of her past to maybe be understood, but than again she did not want to. She hated her past, she hated remembering it and wish she could just forget. No matter how much she wanted that she knew that would never happen, her past would forever be with her. For eternity.
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Post by Nightwalker on Jan 20, 2009 1:13:59 GMT -5
I sit back and listen to her tale. Not uncommon in this city. Most of the undead were dying or about to die when they got turned very few come looking for vampires. I did but I'm older than most vampires walking. I've stared millenniums in the face and still I continued on. Maybe not by choice but I'm still here.
"I see." I say simply. Now what do I do. Hmm menu... no. How about I take a little drink from her. Maybe that will help her relax... No no no. If chiru saw that I know she'd misunderstand and I'd be staked outside waiting for the sun without sun block. Jeez that wife can't understand there's more to the bite then intimacy. Then again that has been our intimacy for years so I can't completely fault her.
I look at her for a long moment. "Well let's start a different way. Let me tell you a bit about myself." I say as I try to see her open up more. "I am roughly 5000 years old... give or take a century or two. I was born immortal. I wasn't a vampire. Simply could not die. I have searched the world over looking for one thing. And I finally found it here. An immortal family." I say giving her the closest thing to me. The thing I treasure the family.
"I have been apart of this world for over long and this world doesn't offer me much. But when I found the vampires in ravenblack and got turned I had finally ascertained what I craved the most in all existance. Items, wealth friends all these things are for not. When the chips are down it is only your family that you can truely trust." I say giving of myself as best I could in the present company. i'd have given her an illusion of my past but now is not the time.
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nobuyuki
Creature of the Night
One cannot gain anything without first giving something of equal value in return...
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Post by nobuyuki on Jan 20, 2009 1:37:40 GMT -5
Nightwalker's silence bugged Keika for some reason as if she expected him to rebound and yell at her or something. His 'I see' had her looking at him curiously as she awaited for him to say anything more, but there was still silence as she looked back to her wine taking a few more sips of it.
When he began speaking about himself her eyes lifted up easily enough hiding the shock of how old he was, because she had not expected that nor to hear that he had been born immortal. She had never heard of someone being born immortal, but than she never got out much although now that she thought about it among all those books she has read she did recall reading something of it. But her memories escaped her as she heard how he felt of family as her gaze went back to her wine.
She stared at it a moment before brining the glass to her lips drinking the rest of it in one big swallow as she set the glass aside feeling somehow relaxed even though she did not want to be.
She took the glass back in her hands needing something to keep her hands occupied as she looked around the room. To anything but him,"To be born immortal...wonder what that is like, but doubt it would of changed anything for me. My Father...my human Father would of still hated me no matter what..."
She was silent a moment contemplating her next words as she still kept her gaze skimming the room not really focusing on anyone or anything in particular,"Nobuyuki. A name meant for a son, a boy, but what they got was a daughter and what Father got was a dead wife due to my birth. *laughs sadly* He still gave me that name though, wanting it to be a constant reminder of what he would never have. As if the name mattered to him, seeing me everyday was a constant reminder. I grew up hearing his hateful words as well as the physical abuse. People say physical abuse is worse than verbal, how wrong they are....verbal hurts so much more. It really does...ever day was like a stab to the heart. How worthless and completely useless I was and that I would be nothing to anyone. Always trash...never having any importance....every day for so many years until that day....."
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Post by Nightwalker on Jan 20, 2009 2:12:39 GMT -5
I shake my head in bewilderment about his father. What a daft man. He had a family and because he wanted a son he lost what he really did have on a pointless dream. Mortals really are stupid.
"Immortality isn't what it's cracked up to be. If I had my way I would have chosen death a long long time ago. When I lost my first wife. But fate has her own ways and now I am content with the family I now have. It makes the long years of searching worth it." I say simply. "It has been a long time coming but perseverance has made it well worth the wait or at least I believe it to be true."
"Your father didn't know what he had when he had it lass. This life isn't always about ones wish but about what one does when their dealt a raw deal. One must survive or wilt. I think you can grow now. You are one of us. One of our own and here you are free to simply be you. We have rules but nothing that doesn't keep the family safe as a whole." I say with a soft smile.
"You are free to come and go as you wish." I chuckle. "Hell your mother bitches at me becomes I'm to free on my comings and goings... I sleep alot." I say with a mischievous grin. "And she always scolds me for it as well when I wake up... but being scolded by Chiru can be fun as well." I say with a wink and a grin.
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nobuyuki
Creature of the Night
One cannot gain anything without first giving something of equal value in return...
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Post by nobuyuki on Jan 20, 2009 15:53:06 GMT -5
"If I could go back I think I would of just chosen death...." Keika stated a bit defeatedly as she traced a finger along the rim of her glass, "I mean not to say I...this life just has not been what I thought it would be, but than no one to blame for any of it but myself. *laughs mockingly* I guess I just imagined more, but didn't get it...I just pictured more. Maybe back than I thought a new family...a close-knit and actual loving family, but that isn't what this is. This family is so large and widespread I can't recall half the members and I do not even try to get close to anyone. I want to, I really do, but my human past interferes. My memories and fears hold me back to just have me remain the way I am. Locking myself away from everything and everyone. *sadly smiles*Mother is the only one I feel close to, truly close to, but I think I rely on her to much due to she is the first Mother I have known and have wanted. A Mother figure..."
Keika shakes her head staring at her fingers still tracing the rim just barely creating a small, vibarting sound. She was unable to return his smile that she barely caught,"I do not even know who I am lately. I wouldn't know how to be me. Its as if I would rather going back to being abused, because than I know how to be, but this life...being free and so open even living it for so long I still stupidly have no clue what I am doing. Maybe that is why I wonder away so much, because I am running away from changing myself or by some sadistic thought hoping to find a hunter that can end it....yeah Mother would hate me for that...and I have no wish to hurt her. I worry her enough as it is with my wonderings."
She pushes the glass aside folding her arms upon the table finally turning her gaze back to Nightwalker just a bare faint smile crossing her lips as he spoke of Chiru,"I have thought about sleeping, but than that would be truly running away from everything. I know I need to fully face the past and memories to come to terms with them and to maybe do this so it will help me as you say grow. To maybe become more open and involved with my family, but part of me just does not see that happening." She rolls her eyes turning her gaze away seeing a few humans who she could tell were really drunk seeming to soon start a commotion. Great ..she thought. A fight...just what she needed to see. After a moment she spoke again watching the two men, "I believe I have rambled enough and bored you probably. I did not even want to talk about it, but some how I felt opening it up and why I did with you is beyond me. I felt if I ever was truly around you I would be utterly quiet and timid...like back than. Fearing your moves or your words. Thinking you would be like him, hell maybe in some sad way I had hoped it would happen, because it would be my reward. What is that saying? 'You reep what you sew'? Hmm..for killing him of course in this new life I would think something was bound to come back and haunt me or to be a reminder of back than. That is what I thought of you...at first. Now I am not so sure....I do not know anything anymore."
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Post by Nightwalker on Jan 21, 2009 15:22:06 GMT -5
I listen to her explain what it is that she did and what it is that makes her go. I can understand killing someone close. I killed my best friend for betrayal over a thousand years ago and I carry an axe to this date that is named after him. It has been my closet companion over the eons and yet even with other's close you have to open yourself up to other's or you will live a dark existence.
"The existence of a vampire is suppose to be dark or so it's always been said amongst our kind. However, I find that vampire's unlife is just like anything else it is what you make it out to be. Their is no solid existence. You can only do with it what you choose to do." I say to her with a wry smile.
"This family is extremely diverse and large. Everyone has their own view of what it means to be this and we all have pasts that we would probably wish to forget." I say trying to keep it simple and not scare her off. She seems to be skittish still.
"There are things in this place to run from. To hide from. To feel the need to wander off because you don't feel like you belong is fine. But I've heard the term Karma. Karma is the world giving back some sort of justice. It's a lie. If the world cared about justice. Injustice would not happen in the first place. I'll tell you what my version of justice is. What's mine is mine. What's theirs is theirs. They don't mess with mine and I won't fuck up theirs. I like my ideology of the world it's simple and overall can lead to a content existence. One that you have a part of. You are one of mine which means if anyone messes with you. I and the rest of the family share this rule. We go mess the up. We only require to be left alone and to exist in our own fashion. Those that don't or won't get it. Learn that we are not someone to play with. That is what you are apart of. That's what it means to be one of us." I say letting her know what this world is for me and where I stand with all Chiru's childer. They are mine. And I don't like anyone playing with what's mine.
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nobuyuki
Creature of the Night
One cannot gain anything without first giving something of equal value in return...
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Post by nobuyuki on Jan 21, 2009 16:19:11 GMT -5
"Great...."Keika drawled out after hearing of vampire existence meaning to be dark, but his continued statment of choosing how one exist made her feel a bit better, but not by much.
The family statment she expected as she turned her gaze back to him looking to him with an unreadable expression. The uneasiness she had felt earlier seemed to be slowly going away. In some ways she was happy with that, but than again not. Why? She was not even sure she could answer that question. Maybe she was starting to realize this was what a Father was...what a Father should be. One thing was for sure she needed to stop comparing them and she needed to drop or rather just lock that past away that mattered no more to her, but she was finding that hard to do no matter how much she tried.
She listened to his view of Karma and than his ideaology and for some reaon she started to somewhat laugh. It came out somewhat forced, but than not. Laughing was not something she was used to so it felt strange to her, but she made herself stop knowing he may take it wrong if she did not explain as she got control over herself, but a faint smile still remained if anything, "I am sorry for laughing...its not that your ideaology was funny it was...hmm. How do I put it. Your view of things is unique and interesting. Whats yours is yours and whats theirs is theirs. So they better not fuck with your things or what belongs to you...that what I found funny, but I guess I shouldn't of. Not even used to laughing..."She explained barely whispering the last part as she averted her gaze turning back to the men once more finding them being thrown out of the pub.
His latter statment of speaking of her and family had her slowly turning her gaze back to him; an uncertainity to her deep gaze. She turned it away soon enough before any more could be read,, "I highly doubt you will have to worry about anyone or thing getting to me. I do not get out much lately, but I guess here lately I have been, but than I avoid everyone just so I will not be bothered or messed with. Oh yeah I am sooo trying to get more involved and close to others."She stated, towards the end going into a sarcastic tone, "I am doing one hella of a job of it...."
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